I find myself thinking of you every day now. For a while it all felt like a dream of sorts, and i feared I might just lose you. I tried to dial gabe’s number like five times today, but i kept dialing your number. I couldnt even remember his. I had some s*** i needed to tell him, and this is one of the first times you weren’t here to run it through with me first. It has taken me a really long time to post on this board. Maybe one day I will be able to put my feelings about all this into words, but that day is not today. Stay with me.